My Future

I wanted to give you my dear readers, a brief look into my future. This has been a long, hard, slow road to recovery for the past six years. I would not wish any of this on my worst enemy. I have gone through periods of stagnation, where I have lost all hope for recovery. This can be blamed 80% on the lack of dopamine in my brain. That is the chemical that gives you motivation, reward, drive and happiness. However, as much as I like to hear that there is a scientific explanation for my lack of motivation, I have to accept 20% of the responsibility for my (now former) lack of progress. 

It has taken me six long years. However, I now understand that my brain is reawakening. I must continue exercising six days a week for the rest of my life, in order to not allow my brain to go back to being dormant again. I don't enjoy all this effort. However, I know now that I have to keep doing repetitive exercises in order to retrain my brain. I never again want to allow my brain to go dormant for lack of trying on my part. 

There are worst things in the world than exercising six days a week.  I have the added benefits of staying healthier for longer and exercise has been proven to help fight mental decline. So, I can't argue with that. At least my brain is reawakening and I am not paralyzed thank God or in a coma. I may never be able to walk fully unassisted again. However, I don't know the limits of my recovery yet and I owe it to myself and everyone around me to try as hard as possible for as long as possible, to get as close as possible to normal life as possible. The only thing that I know for sure is that I have not yet reached the limits of my progress. 

Thank you for supporting me through six long years and not giving up on me even when I gave up on myself. Realizing all of this six years later, isn't ideal. I wasted a lot of time. However, I can't change the past, only the future. It is better late than never. 

That is all for now, Tyler