That being said, I don't tend to pity myself and I am happy to have been able to push through my depression. I can't do everything that I once did, as easily or as automatically as before. I am not in a coma or bedridden. I still have a lot of life left (hopefully) and I have a decent quality of life. I have come a long way since all of this started back in 2020.
I have a beautiful and loving wife and daughter. My wife is completely supportive of me and pushes me hard when I need it. She has more faith in me than I do in myself. She has taken in sickness and in health literally. She has had plenty of opportunities to give up and walk away.
To be honest, I wouldn't blame her. However, she has stayed with me throughout it all. I love her more than words can express and I am extremely lucky to have her in my life. Eliana Valentina Horton Mojica has been through so much in her four short years on this planet. She is kind, empathetic, loving and helpful. She doesn't treat me any different than any other able bodied father. I love her to pieces and having her was the best decision that I ever made.
I have an amazing family (both close and extended). Both of my parents have been extremely supportive and helpful to me with everything. Both of my brother's as well. Not everyone can count on their family so I am extremely fortunate in that regard. I have been blessed with great in laws and an amazingly supportive group of friends. I consider myself much better off than some. I wish that this would have never happened to me but it did. I can't change it.
It has allowed me to take the little victories as they come. This condition has been the hardest on me personally. However, it indirectly affects everyone in my life.
I also want to give a special shoutout to my in laws and my brother in law and two sister in laws. I can't forget about my sister in laws boyfriend Fran either. None of them asked for this but they have all been helpful and understanding. They have taken care of me and Eliana and never complained. Ana's boyfriend Fran didn't realize that I had medical issues when he started dating Ana but he has been totally supportive and helpful. My in laws treat me like I was their own son and they have been amazing. Not having my own family close by, this has made me feel extremely lucky. Not everyone is as lucky as I am with their inlaws.
I do not take mobility or life in general for granted anymore. I can only continue trying my hardest to get back to normal life. I am very lucky not to have a degenerative condition. My condition should only continue to improve with time and effort. I could be content with my current condition. I could live a passable life in my current condition.
However, to do so would be leaving me more dependant on Jenny and Eliana than they deserve. Both of them have been through so much and they deserve a chance at a normal life. They can't take advantage of that chance unless and until I get back to normal life. They are my two biggest and best reasons to stay motivated and keep trying to progress to hopefully one day get back to normal life. However even if I never do, I still consider myself blessed, loved and lucky.
Be sure to hug your family and friends tight. None of us knows how long that we will have on this earth. Every day is a blessing. So this is my general thank you letter to anyone that takes the time to read this. I love each and every single one of you.
Til next time, Tyler
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