My Mental Health

I have said this before, but I would repeat this a million times over if I knew it would help someone.

Two years ago, I went through a very dark and depressing period in my life.

I was really struggling health wise and doing much worse than I am now.

I was completely numb emotionally. Nothing made me happy, sad, angry, frustrated or annoyed.

The only reason why I even opened my eyes every day was because it was an automatic reflex from my body. I was not motivated to do anything. I wasn't living for anyone or anything. 

Then they put me on an antidepressant (which I am no longer taking)

It gave me back normal human emotions and I am very thankful for modern medicine.

I do not agree with the decision to commit suicide. You are selfishly ending your own pain but starting a ton of pain for the friends and family that you leave behind.

I do not agree with someone's decision to commit suicide but after going through my own depression I do understand it. Some people just want to end the numbness. 

I was very lucky to come out the other side, I was able to return to my normal life with those people who love me and whom I love.

If any of you reading this, ever find yourself in a dark place mentally, you can feel free to reach out to me and just know that you are not alone and things will get better.

I love each and every one of you. I hope to have many more happy years left and I hope to get back to normal life sooner or later. I have a beautiful wife and daughter to live for. I have amazing friends and family. 

However, even if I don't have much time left here on earth, I truly am one of the luckiest men alive despite my health issues. I would take away all of my health issues if I could, but since I can't, I wouldn't change a thing. 

Til next time, Tyler