Pity Party

I just noticed something today and I wanted to share it with all of you. I recently have had the feeling that the average person looks at me in my current condition and feels pity for me.

This is frustrating because I don't pity myself. There was a period of time where I was having a pity party for myself. I was very depressed and I was wondering why all of this had to happen to me. 

However, I no longer pity myself. I can't do everything I once could, and I still need help and accommodation with certain things. Despite that fact, I can now do the majority of the daily tasks independently. 

A lady came to deliver a package which I had to sign for. She looked at me (I answered the door in my wheelchair) and she told me that it didn't matter if my signature was messy. I do struggle now with my handwriting. She was only trying to be nice so I am not angry at her. 

What bothers me is that was the first thing that came to her mind. I hope this changes in the future.

Another thing that happened recently was we got our groceries delivered as usual. When I answered the door in my wheelchair the guy offered to bring all of the groceries to our kitchen counter. He was only trying to be nice. I cannot be angry at him. But would he have done the same thing for an able bodied person?

This was really all that I wanted to say. My life and current condition are not ideal. However, any life is better than none at all. I am hopeful that one day, sooner or later I will be able to return to normal life. 

Til next time, Tyler